What were you doing last year?

I can not believe it has been a year. In one hour from now, 364 days ago, I was tucking away a Christmas present for my mother in law (that took five years to make) in a drawer, when my water broke. I remember shivering so much and Cris was worried something was wrong. I was just so freaking scared. There was no going back. And now here we are, three of us.

I couldn't help but feel nostalgic the other day, walking through a mall near my work. There was a woman, hair tied in a messy ponytail, wearing sweats and a hooded cardigan. She had a baby tucked on her hip, pushing a stroller with one hand, nursing bra hanging out over the top of her tank top, the baby clutching the top of the bra. That was me just months ago. Wondering what the hell I was doing. How I was going to manage all the breastfeeding and diapers and laundry...And what if at any moment Owen became a screaming banshee and never returned to the angelic smiling goon? What if he decides to be awake all night? What if he decides he hates me for being at work?

So far we seem to be managing.

I know our lives have changed for sure. We were watching family man with Nicholas Cage. Cris noted the poor accuracy of the movie when Nick puts a bottle in the microwave with the nipple on the bottle. "You can't do that. Never put the nipple on the bottle in the microwave." Yes things are different now.